Nutella

God made this incredible thing called Nutella. It's a delicious spread made of chocolate and hazelnuts, used on bread and for baking. Sometimes, people use it in icing for cupcakes. I happened to experience one of these such cupcakes this evening. It was delicious. And then I threw up. Twice. Ahhh, the joy of allergies. Still having faith for healing one day, so I can enjoy Nutella without the effects of a bad hangover. 

I thought I'd throw out a reminder that I have as many insipid thoughts as I do profound ones. (: 

Also, I thought I would let you know that if I ever consume nuts, it will be no bueno for me. So if you're ever thinking it would be nice to make me food or feed me chocolate, please make sure there are no nut products in there. 

A Thought on Worship

The other night, our school went to help out at this ministry called Cloud and Fire. It's really an awesome place- they just started up a charter school for at-risk youth so that they can get vocational training if they've dropped out of school or been in jail or whatever. I encourage you to check it out: http://www.cloudandfire.org/

Anyway, they had a house-church service the night we were there, and, as church usually goes, it started out with worship. However, as the music started playing and we started to sing, I realized- much to my horror- that I was doing just that. Singing. I knew the words. I knew the melody. I even thought I meant what I was singing. But... I wasn't worshiping. I was singing. I was going through to motions of church, preforming. I realized, as all of this was going on in my head, that during 'worship', we have no obligations EXCEPT to WORSHIP. We don't have to make sure the people around us are comfortable. We don't have to make sure we're not singing so loud that it distracts those around us. We don't even have to make sure we sing the right notes! Our obligation during worship is to have a time that is intimate between us and God. My only obligation is to recognize God for who He is, to thank Him, to relate to Him. (Now, I don't feel quite the same way about being a worshiper in the crowd and being a worshiper on stage, but that is a different post entirely) Worship is not about us. Worship is about God and only God. It is entirely self-less and entirely God-focused. It is pretty much the only time that God gets ALL OF OUR ATTENTION AND AFFECTION. So why would we rob our relationship with God of that time? Seriously, most of us don't spend enough time being totally focused on reveling in God's character. I know I don't. But worship, for me, is like the one place where I can release everything about myself and turn my face solely to my Jesus. Worship is a lifestyle- is isn't just singing songs... But that's also another blog post entirely. Basically, my revelation was that my obligation is to worship God no matter what others around me are doing. Whether they're sitting or standing, singing or silent, raising their hands or clapping them, staring at me or focused on God... worship is about drowning out everything else because you are so intently focused on glorifying God.

So... I've made a resolution. I'm going to worship God however I feel like I'm led to, no matter what that looks like to people around me. It sounds silly, maybe, but I'm realizing that sometimes, my concern with the opinions of those around me inhibits me from obeying God fully. (I thought I didn't care what anyone thought of me, but apparently, I do!) So, in a broader sense, my resolution is actually to be concerned with only God's opinion of me and no one else's.

I pray that God begins revealing things in your life that prevent you from really following God. No matter how old you are or how long you've been in a relationship with God, there are always places in your life that need growth. If you feel like you've come to a place of plateau, something is probably wrong(: That said, I intend to continue to grow and learn until I'm wearing my crown in Heaven, and if anyone thinks I've ceased to do so, please let me know.

Much love,
Ash

Outside-In or Inside-Out?

I'm watching my wonderful man set up his blog right now, enjoying seeing him overthinking his URL and title. He's such a thoughtful guy. Everything about him says so. I don't think I've ever seen him do something thoughtless. I'm sure he has, I just haven't seen it. Yet.

Today we talked more about passion. One thing specifically was the fact that in Acts chapter two, Luke writes: "They devoted themselves to..."

He looked at the church and could see what they devoted themselves to. As Christians, we're meant to be a visible light on a hill. That means that the world should be able to look at us and see what our values and our passions are.

I look at Luke, and I can see that he values thoughtfulness. He's never told me that. He might not even realize that it's something that he values so much. But I can see that about him. I don't think he TRIES to be thoughtful. I think it's something that he's decided (maybe subconsciously, but it was a choice) is important to him, and because of that, it shows through his actions.

I want other people to look at me and be able to tell what's important to me, not because I say anything, but because of the way that I act. I want people to look at me and know that I value a hunger for God. I want them to be able to see that worship is something I'm passionate about. I don't ever want someone to ask me what my values are or what I'm passionate about. My actions should speak louder than I could if I tried.

Yesterday, I was hanging out with God, talking to him about what my current passions are. I made of list of things I think are important to me, and then I asked Him what things He thinks I think are important. Of course, there were things on my lists that I wasn't happy about- things I realize I need to work on replacing for Kingdom values rather than cultural ones. I was a bit bummed out for a minute, and then I asked God what He wanted me to work on first. Much to my surprise, what He told me wasn't included on my paper. He reminded me that it isn't about the things I do, the things I say, or even the values I have- it's about my relationship with Him. The thing He wants me to invest in isn't self-improvement. He wants me to invest in our relationship.

Do you know why our relationship with God is more important than our current condition? Well, I don't KNOW, but I have a theory:

Maybe first, I need to say something else, though. I think a lot of times, we try to change our behavior (or the behavior of others) hoping that one we change our outsides, changes on the insides will follow. We think that changing habits will change our minds, that changing behavior will change our hearts. Well, I disagree. Our insides define our outsides. God commands us to love others because He first loved us. Our love for others is an outpouring of the belief that the God of the Universe loves us. Our internal beliefs define our external actions. Therefore, if one wants to change a behavior, one needs to start inside and know that the internal change will produce external results. Our outsides are proof of our insides. If I tell you I'm a strong believer in recycling, but I don't recycle, then you know I'm not actually a believer in it. If I make it a point to recycle, then without me having to tell you, you can see that I believe in recycling. See? So... back to my question: Why is our relationship with God more important than our current condition? I think it's because only God can change our insides, which determines our outsides. Plus, God isn't interested in perfect people. He's interested in people who are passionate about Him. How can we be passionate about God if we don't have a relationship with Him? How can we hope that God will work in our hearts if we haven't let Him in to do that?

Before I came back to LA, someone texted me and told me that God had told them to tell me that growing in my relationship with Him would shine more than my personality. Does that seem a bit weird to anyone else? I sat there for a while wondering how something internal and private like my relationship with God could shine more than something external like my personality. But, you know what? My growing relationship with God, and my growing passion for Him, will become evident through my actions. Why? Because my passion for God will dictate what's on my outside.

Alright. Well. Two essays in a row.. that's a little brutal for you guys. I hope you're doing alright, hanging in there. Thanks for reading(:

-Ash

Oh yeah, so Luke's blog link is at the top of my page now... He totally copied me with the whole "adventure" thing. I guess it was a pretty great idea(;

His Kingdom, Our Dream

Have you ever experienced that feeling you get when you know-you absolutely know-that you're exactly where you need to be? I have. It's the feeling I got as I watched Jonny and Dani pull in to the bus station parking lot to pick me and Luke up. It's the feeling I got when I met my first roomie, who knows the same people as I do from an obscure surf town in Chile. It's the feeling I got when I got to Sam's house to reunite with my old friends and connect with some new ones. It's the feeling I got at breakfast this morning as Werner, the base director and leader of SLAM, began talking about his vision for these next eight weeks. I found myself close to tears as he talked about the very thing I have been wrestling with since I arrived home in August- the dichotomy between western culture and Kingdom culture and what it looks like to live the life God has called us as followers to live. God is so good. He is so trustworthy. He is so wise. He knows where we need to be and when we need to be there. He even knows why. Even when He doesn't explain those things to us, He knows, and our job is not to demand an explanation from Him, but to trust in His infinite wisdom and obey Him without question. 

This week, we're doing a series on passion. It's already been totally awesome and we've only listened to an hour of speaking so far. Here are a few things Lloyd said that really hit me:

-"passion" comes from a Latin word that means "to suffer for" 

-passion is more than an emotion; it helps us to determine what our beliefs are

-"If we actually believed in Hell, we would live like it. If we actually believed in Heaven, it would affect our attachment to things in this world."

And here are a few notes I jotted down about what's been going through my head today:

-I am so excited about this time for God to seriously convict my heart and to continue to radically transform my passions into His. 

-What I see around me is a generation of young people eager to throw away the comforts and securities of this world to live for something that is much greater than that. I see a generation of mobilizers, leaders, and world-changers. I see a radical, restless generation ready to live life the way God intended for us to. We are on fire and not about to settle for anything less than the fullness of life which was promised to us. 

I realize this is scatter-brained. However, I feel like that's better than it being nonexistent. 

You may have noticed my blog posts from when I was at home were in a bit of a different tone than my previous and most recent posts. I was feeling a ton of frustration because the issue of living radically for the Lord was brought to the forefront of my attention, and I didn't have much to fill my mind with aside from that. I read this book (for those of you who don't really know me, that is a feat. I haven't read an entire book for ages) called Radical by David Platt. I've talked about it before, but I finished it a few days ago, and it produced so much conviction and frustration that I didn't know what to do with. It was an incredible book. So phenomenal. But I knew that if I didn't do anything with the contents, it would have been for nothing. Trying to figure out what to do was the really hard part. It sucked. It agonized me to think about. I had no idea what to do with all the thoughts in my head, all the revelations, all the truth. I figured I would come here, to SLAM, and I would get a little community, a little clarity as to what it looks like to live out the Great Commission. Notice- I said A LITTLE. This is (basically) the third paragraph in the welcome letter Werner and Lisa wrote to us:

"The theme for this seminar is 'His Kingdom, Our Dream'... The Kingdom of Jesus and the ramifications of His reign in our lives and in our societies is one of the most fascinating and intriguing things to ponder: Has the Kingdom already arrived? Or when will it come and what will that look like? How will our lives and our societies be changed because of it? Where do we start? All those and many more questions are there to be pondered and in the midst of it, you're wondering about your particular place and assignment." 

Try to tell me that God didn't plan this. If you heard me talking about coming back to LA and what I'm doing here, pretty much my answer was "Something to do with ministry development, but I really have no idea." Well. God had an idea. I know I already talked about this at the beginning of my post, but I really wanted to expand upon it to make a point to you readers: 

YOU+GOD=MAJORITY

A very wise man, aka my dad, told me that. When God tells you to do something, no matter what anyone else says, no matter how anyone else feels, no matter how irresponsible and illogical it sounds, our job as His followers is not to understand His reasoning but to obey Him fully without question. Why? Because. He knows better. How arrogant are we that we think we deserve an explanation from God? How can we, the merely created, ever have a smidgen of hope that we could understand our infinite Creator?  

I invite you to come with me on the next chapter of my adventure with God. I know big things are about to happen. I challenge you to not just read what I'm writing for entertainment or information, but to take in my words and decide what you're going to do about them. Decide if I'm speaking truths or if I'm mistaken. Decide if I'm totally off-base or if I'm on track with what God says in His word. I'm going to say things that will offend you. I make no apology in that statement. I will do my best to offend with real, Biblical truth and not with my own crazy thoughts, but realize that just because you disagree does not mean that the statement isn't Biblical. I think it's time that we stop being concerned about our truths and start being concerned with God's. I think it's time that we stop being wrapped up in what we think living a Christian life looks like and start really looking at what Jesus said about following Him. Notice that I say 'we' and not 'you'. I realize that I have to include myself in my statements. I realize that I'm not above reproach, that I'm not doing it right, that I'm flawed just like everyone else. But I am not content to stay where I'm at, and I hope that you feel the same way. 

With much love,

Ash

My life is a disaster and my head is full of rhetoric.

I feel like nothing has changed.

*Sigh*

I guess the worst part about wanting to be a Jesus-follower is that you stay human.

Thirteen days before I'm on a greyhound back to California.
Oh, joy.

Also, snakes shed their skin a layer at a time.

I'm not sure what exactly the significance of that is, but I feel like there's something there.

***

I was talking with my friend Chris today, and Christianity came about in our conversation. He was noting that Christians are ignorant. And I had to agree with him. We use church as our medium for hearing from God, expecting the pastor to spoon feed us on Sundays, getting frustrated with the church when our spiritual lives are taking a turn for the worst. Well. That's not what church was made for. We're meant to feed ourselves. Church is meant to be a place of fellowship, of communing with others who share our beliefs. Chris is my age, and we were having this conversation. This generation can see through the Christian religion we've invented in this country. We can see that there's more to it than most so-called Christians are living out. He noticed, too, that some Christians use God as a scape-goat for not dealing with our problems, claiming that we "give them to God" and then walk away from them. Well.. yes, we lay our burdens and our struggles down before the Lord, but that doesn't mean that they're disappeared and we can go on living like they no longer exist. That is simply not the case. Giving them to God means seeking Him for instruction as to how to deal with those things.
It was a really interesting chat.

Chris is on a journey of "spiritual exploration"... Basically, he's searching for truth. He doesn't see it in the Christians he sees around Him. If we're not living our lives according to how the Bible has called us to do so, we're living a lie, and we're labeling ourselves as ambassadors for Christ, misrepresenting Him all the way. This is a problem. We ourselves turn people away from the only true God through our lack of understanding about who we are as children of the King.

I am determined to never be one of those Christians.

I am determined to be the real deal.

I will not be a follower of the American Jesus.

I will be a follower of Jesus Christ, Lord and Savior of all, who calls us to pick up our crosses and follow Him.

I will not misrepresent.

Chew on that.

You may have noticed I've done some revamping to my blog.

I'm not having a super great day today, so I got myself all extra cute this morning, and I figured that my blog could use a make-over as well.

So here it is!

I hope you like it. If you have any complaints, please let me know. This is for you guys, after all. (Oh hey, I may not have said this lately, but anybody can make comments on here- you don't have to have a Google account or anything. You don't even have to leave your name!)

Right on. So. Why am I not having a super great day? Good question. I don't really know, exactly. It's just been one of those days. You know what I'm saying. One of the ones where you open your eyes, stare up at your ceiling, and wonder just what the point of getting out of bed would be, exactly. Yeah. Not so great.

Also, there are a lot of things going on in my life right now that are GIANT things. And I'm having a really hard time focusing on my relationship with God. So... Big things in my life, big empty place where my Daddy's voice should be... No wonder my day hasn't been so hot!

Big things:

I've compared them to boats. It's sort of silly, but I like it. So, these things I'm deciding about- one being my decision to totally surrender my life to Jesus- are sort of like jumping on to a ship. As far as my choice to follow Jesus or not, it's like being on a boat which I am not the captain of. Jesus is. So right now... part of my deciding process (I know it seems like I've already gone through that, but that's not exactly the case..) includes figuring out whether or not I trust the captain. A captain who, I'm realizing, I don't really know as well as I thought. A captain I've heard about through many other people but haven't REALLY met for myself. (It's a pretty complete analogy, right?) In any case, that's sort of where I'm at as far as that's concerned. Other decisions I don't really want to talk about right now. That's the big one. Figuring out if I really trust Jesus to captain the ship that is my life. Because it's not that easy to switch boats once you're out at sea, you know?

I guess there was only one big thing there. There are more things going on, but I'm not really sure how to put them eloquently into readable format at this moment, so I'll tell you about them later.

Yep. There it is. Sorry this round of words wasn't anything too special. Just a reminder that I'm a human and I struggle with things. I know I come across as the perfect Christian sometimes..... Heh(; Jokes. But seriously, don't forget that I know that I don't have everything figured out. Actually, I have nothing figured out, and I'm continuously astounded at the notion of how little I actually know.

Have a really good night, you guys. If you'd be keeping me in your prayers, I would appreciate it. I'd like to be out of this cloud and back into the clarity of the Spirit.

Love,
Ash.

Why is it that when you're trying to live in the light, you miss the darkness so much more?

I don't really have anything profound and/or interesting to say today.

Just.

God is really good.

And I have been coming to the realization over and over that no matter how many times He PROVES to me that this is true, I still doubt it.

Somehow, though, He doesn't get mad at me because I keep having the same issue repeatedly.

No wonder we're sheep.

Also, it's my big sister Britt's birthday today(:
Praise the Lord she was born. My life would have been a lot different if she wasn't!

So I'm reading this SUPER great book called RADICAL. It's by this dude named David Platt. If you haven't read it, you should. ESPECIALLY if you're a Christian in America.
In a very small nutshell, it's about "taking your faith back from the American Dream". (That's what it says right on the cover of the book, and the insides agree)

I'm chewing it up a little at a time because it's full of SO MUCH GOOD STUFF. Today, I want to talk about this thing Platt brings up- the little voice inside of us that says, "Oh, that's not my calling" when we hear about missionaries, mission work, or even ministry work...

"...missions is a compartmentalized program of the church, and select folks are good at missions and passionate about missions... but in the end God has just not called most of us to do this missions thing. But where in the Bible is missions ever identified as an optional program in the church? ...Indeed, Jesus himself has not merely called us to go to all nations; he has created and commanded us to go to all nations. We have taken this command, though, and reduced it to a calling- something that only a few people receive."

WOAH. Right? It sounds a little drastic, maybe, and possibly, your initial reaction is to disagree with him here. After all, it simply isn't feasible for everyone to drop everything and move over seas to do "full-time missions work".

Well, how about this. Let's check out what being a missionary is all about. It's actually pretty basic: a missionary is someone who has been sent on a mission. See? Now being a missionary sounds a lot less glamorous and a lot less complicated. I think we tend to think of missionaries as people who go into third world or closed countries to risk their lives sharing the gospel with those who haven't heard it. Well.. yes and no. There are definitely people who do that. But there are people who live their lives according to the command Christ gave right before He went back to Heaven in their own towns, too. See, the mission isn't to make sure that every country in the world knows who Jesus is. Well, it sort of is, but... My point is this: I think that often times when we discuss the Great Commission, we forget that Jesus didn't just tell us to go to every nation. He also told us- and this is the key, really- to make disciples. The mission isn't just to go; it is also to make. If we choose to pass "being a missionary" off to others around us, we've missed one of the biggest parts of being a follower of Jesus. This, I believe, is really the concern that Platt is addressing with his words.

Let's do a quick review:
What is a missionary? Someone who has been sent on a mission.
Who has been sent on a mission? Everyone who claims to be a lover and follower of Christ. 
What is the mission? To make disciples everywhere we go. 

That's not really very complicated, now is it?

Alright, so we've covered these fundamentals. Are we all good here? Everyone agrees so far, yes? (Hopefully, because I'm going to go ahead and keep typing even if you think I'm a looney)

Next topic I feel we must address: What does it look like to make disciples?

Ah. What a great question. I'm so glad you asked! Let's explore a little.

First of all- this is VERY IMPORTANT: DISCIPLES ARE NOT MANUFACTURED OVER NIGHT.
I know, that seems like a really silly thing to bold and make huge and what not, but seriously. I know that seems like common sense, but think about how many times you've been trying to share Jesus with someone, or teach them about His words, or explain to them basics of the gospel, and you get frustrated because they're JUST. NOT. GETTING. IT. You know what I'm saying? Come on, I know you do. Let's take a look at Jesus' own disciples- He spent THREE YEARS with them. I could be wrong, but from what I know, it seems like they pretty much spent all their time together. Or at least a  good chunk. Think back to your college days when you and your cronies spent so much time together that you knew each other better than anyone. Well. That's what it looked like for the thirteen of them. Except, imagine that instead of just hanging out with the boys, every interaction you had with them was intentional and ultimately your goal was to teach them the ways of Christ. That's no walk in the park, you guys. I can't imagine doing it. Even after three years of constant discipleship, though- from Jesus Himself, nonetheless- Peter still denied Him three times, Thomas still doubted Him, and Judas still betrayed Him. THAT is what discipleship looks like. It's a long process. It's tedious. It's infuriating sometimes, too. But, do you know why Jesus left us this command without a detailed list of instructions? Because, my friends, discipleship is about relationships, and there can be no easy 1-2-3 repeat-after-me way to navigate through a relationship.

That might not have been incredibly helpful, because essentially what I just said was this: Making disciples isn't easy. It isn't quick. It isn't instantly gratifying. It isn't necessarily ever gratifying, actually. Relationships are messy, and there's no way around that. In other words... I have no idea what in the world I'm doing here, either. All I really know is that Jesus commands us to make disciples, and the gospels are written accounts of three years of Him being an example of what that looks like in real life.

Wow. That's a lot of words up there. Holy Spirit is the best(: (I can't take credit for all those words because I simply know I couldn't have come up with all that on my own)

I think that's all for right now. I hope you've gleaned something new today. God bless(:

Also, here are some scripture references for you:

Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority on heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." Matthew 28:18-20

He said to them, "Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation. Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned. And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, an they will get well." Mark 16:15-18
Side note: Doesn't reading that make you wonder if you believe as much as you think you do? Definitely makes me wonder...

Hey, everyone!

I realize that I have been a really terrible author and left you all hanging in suspense...
There are questions left unanswered.
Stories left untold.

Many. Many. Many things need to be said. In reality, though, I probably won't have a chance to say all of them.

First, I am back in Portland! (Fun side note- I actually don't live in Portland, I just like to say I do because it is wayyyy easier than trying to explain where I actually live. It sounds a lot cooler, too) Anyway. So I'm home with my family again, which is pretty nice. I really missed them. We're a fun bunch- we really are. Man, oh, man, though... I am so happy to be reunited with my little man- EWI! (: That's my puppy. He's the constant fluff of joy in my life.

Quick recap...


I got home August 14th (I know, I know, I'm quite the slacker) and my mom's sister showed pretty much right after I did. We did some fun things. Quickly after that, I took the Greyhound up to Canada to visit Sam and Britt, who are two of my most favorite girls in the world. Sam and I are in a band- it's pretty sweet, we're called Unspoken Heroes, and I think you can look us up on Facebook. So we tried recording, but I'm afraid of the microphone so that didn't end up working out so well. BUT! We did take some sweet photos for future reference, and God introduced us to this nifty dude named Amos who dug our sound and offered us a show in Canada. Unfortunately, I don't live there, so it didn't work out, BUT I guess he has some hook ups in LA, so I'll have to keep you posted on that one. Sam and I played out in front of the Booster Juice Britt works at, and God handed us $20 for two hours of playing! It sounds like nothing, and in reality, it is, but considering there were only about 20 people who walked by us in that time period, we were pretty stoked.

So Canada was great, then I came home, and then it was my birthday! Woohoo! I'm old now! It was a super great day. The main event of the day was a worship sesh that evening at my house (sorry if you didn't get the memo.. I'll be having one again here pretty soon). It was really quite amazing, getting to spend the day of my birth remembering why I was born- to bring glory to God(: If you want to see what you missed, or remember what it was like, here's a link to some pieces of the evening: http://www.youtube.com/user/akhiljhaveri?feature=results_main
Oh my goodness. Seriously, best way to spend the day. Let's see. What else...

I've been hanging out with my dad and my baby sister (who is taller than me now.. can you believe that?!) for the past few days... My mom and my other sister escaped off to the Caribbean for a week. Lame. We've been having heaps more fun here, anyway. Who cares about sunshine and beaches and little fishes? Oh yeah! But my dad's super great. I love him a ton. It's been really good to actually spend time with him all by myself. We haven't gotten to do that in a long time. I maintain the truth that I am his favorite daughter.







Oh hey! Also, do you guys remember Luke? I probably talked about him somewhere along the line. He's the Australian from my school! The amazing musician, the dashing young gent in that video with me somewhere below this post... Well. He's my best friend, first of all. Second of all, he is my wonderful boyfriend, my partner in crime(: It's been very exciting so far, largely because two days after we decided that this wild idea to be, I quote Facebook here, "in a relationship" was not only totally preposterous, but also very good, I came back here to my home. We went from being together every day for half a year to not ever being together at all ever. Except for Skype... Praise the LORD for Skype! (I'm actually Skyping him right now... heh(: What a guy...) But, yep. So he's in Australia, I'm in the States... Tah-dahh!


Aright, now you're pretty well caught up on the events of my life.


So... What am I doing now? This is a valid and very excellent question, which I'm excited to answer.



Well. I'm going back to Los Angeles, to YWAM, to do that SLAM school I talked about before- the school of leadership and ministry development- so I'm STOKED! God made it pretty clear that that's where I am meant to be at this point. My mom and I made an agreement that she would be okay with me going if I have my funds before I leave on the 24th of this month. Well... God is providing! My dad won't tell me who, but apparently there are some people who saw those videos from the worship night and want to help me get back to YWAM! I also just started giving guitar lessons, which was totally from God, and it's really fun! So.. God is super awesome. I'm really really really stoked to be living my life for Him. I can't really imagine doing it any other way.

So that's pretty much all for now. Just an update post. Sorry it isn't more exciting... I'll definitely be posting more here in the very near future(:

Bye, folks!