You may have noticed I've done some revamping to my blog.

I'm not having a super great day today, so I got myself all extra cute this morning, and I figured that my blog could use a make-over as well.

So here it is!

I hope you like it. If you have any complaints, please let me know. This is for you guys, after all. (Oh hey, I may not have said this lately, but anybody can make comments on here- you don't have to have a Google account or anything. You don't even have to leave your name!)

Right on. So. Why am I not having a super great day? Good question. I don't really know, exactly. It's just been one of those days. You know what I'm saying. One of the ones where you open your eyes, stare up at your ceiling, and wonder just what the point of getting out of bed would be, exactly. Yeah. Not so great.

Also, there are a lot of things going on in my life right now that are GIANT things. And I'm having a really hard time focusing on my relationship with God. So... Big things in my life, big empty place where my Daddy's voice should be... No wonder my day hasn't been so hot!

Big things:

I've compared them to boats. It's sort of silly, but I like it. So, these things I'm deciding about- one being my decision to totally surrender my life to Jesus- are sort of like jumping on to a ship. As far as my choice to follow Jesus or not, it's like being on a boat which I am not the captain of. Jesus is. So right now... part of my deciding process (I know it seems like I've already gone through that, but that's not exactly the case..) includes figuring out whether or not I trust the captain. A captain who, I'm realizing, I don't really know as well as I thought. A captain I've heard about through many other people but haven't REALLY met for myself. (It's a pretty complete analogy, right?) In any case, that's sort of where I'm at as far as that's concerned. Other decisions I don't really want to talk about right now. That's the big one. Figuring out if I really trust Jesus to captain the ship that is my life. Because it's not that easy to switch boats once you're out at sea, you know?

I guess there was only one big thing there. There are more things going on, but I'm not really sure how to put them eloquently into readable format at this moment, so I'll tell you about them later.

Yep. There it is. Sorry this round of words wasn't anything too special. Just a reminder that I'm a human and I struggle with things. I know I come across as the perfect Christian sometimes..... Heh(; Jokes. But seriously, don't forget that I know that I don't have everything figured out. Actually, I have nothing figured out, and I'm continuously astounded at the notion of how little I actually know.

Have a really good night, you guys. If you'd be keeping me in your prayers, I would appreciate it. I'd like to be out of this cloud and back into the clarity of the Spirit.

Love,
Ash.